Same ole story

I have grown tired of this pseudo relationship I have with my mother. Its always about her. How devastated she is that I am not some bible toting Christian.Always with the tears, I just want my kids to be happy and know Jesus>> How the fuck am I supposed to know Jesus, if he existed at all,he died over 2,000 years ago and was a fucked up Jew, would I even want to know him. I know she has ''daddy'' issues, which drive her from rational thought. Of course, I didn't search for a father, I had one and he sucked. No thanks on a repeat again.. 20 years of pure devotion to her ''happiness'' and it still isn't enough to gain her favour over an imaginary ''daddy''. Sod it then I live 5,000 miles away. I am becoming famous over here for intellectual pursuits. ''I know its real, I feel it. The Holy Spirit? Really? I speak in tongues.. So you are weird. I know Angels languages. Wouldn't be easier to communicate to people in English or what have you?